Project PersonaMatrix

When I entered first grade, I was a sullen little gray country mouse, burdened with a head full of rules about how to behave so as not to disgrace my mother, a teacher, and my father, a member of the rural elite. After all, "What will people say?!" Do this, not that. Don’t jump in puddles. Don’t roll on the grass, or you’ll tear your pants. Adults gave me instructions in their rich Cherkasy dialect about how things *should* be—according to them, of course.  

 

Naturally, hitting classmates behind the school or offending girls was strictly forbidden. Once, during recess, a group of first-grade girls stretched a string across the playground, marking the border of their “girl territory.” They decided for me where I was allowed to go and where I wasn’t. They separated the world of women, which was off-limits, in exchange for the safety granted by the male world. I remember running at full speed, breaking that silly string, and continuing on my way, leaving the girls astonished by my disregard for their rules.  

 

Since then, I’ve broken many rules. Psychologists would likely say that these are signs of antisocial behavior. But my colleagues, until they can slap a label on someone, don’t know what to do—whether to send them to a psychiatrist or leave them with the therapists for now.  

 

During my military service, a private named Kostya Struyev, who was a year younger than me, called me “John” (someone to admire) because I treated the soldiers with humanity rather than strict adherence to regulations. Fifteen years later, a Moscow inspector advised my boss, Vadym Vnukovsky, not to promote me to the rank of colonel. His reason? I was a "sly and disobedient Khokhol" because I had refused to serve drinks at a drunken party hosted by a pathological narcissist and paranoid superior.  

 

In private business, my defiance, combined with the knowledge I gained from my MBA, turned out to be called entrepreneurship—and it generated profit, which, after all, is the goal of commerce. Later, I violated standard project rules in the public sector, successfully implementing large-scale, well-funded IT projects that were otherwise impossible to execute under traditional procedures. And all of this—without a single pretrial investigation against me in 15 years of work. I successfully completed over five national-level projects.  

 

Today, as a clinical psychologist with a classic master’s degree, I explore how individuals manifest themselves in life and investigate the collective unconscious of humanity through Jungian psychoanalysis, as well as personality types through Freudian psychoanalysis.  

 

I’ve blended together the rules of Gestalt therapy, ThetaHealing, and psychoanalysis—disciplines I don’t claim to know perfectly (unlike intellectual, narcissistic psychologists ☺). Otherwise, I wouldn’t have mixed them if I strictly followed the letter of the rules. Just as I tore through that silly string the first-grade girls stretched out, I’ve pierced the veil of specialized psychological knowledge. I now offer this tool to readers, viewers, and listeners—a tool to better understand the world of people, to grasp their motives and incentives, to know oneself, become a more mature individual, and break free from the confines of the Matrix of archetypes and personalities.  

 

Now, I am here to help you.